My FIRST pair of jeans!!
Let me explain, this was not my first pair of jeans in life…but rather my first pair of jeans in a LONG time. A friend of mine, a fashion connoisseur, blessed me with a new outfit for my 25th birthday. And she challenged me to get some jeans. You might be thinking, wearing jeans was a challenge for you? Yes, yes it was.
It goes back to growing up feeling insecure about the way that I looked because 1) My mom passed away years ago and never got to teach me how to love myself and 2) The pressures of this world to be perfect were very real (they still are). As silly as it sounds, I struggled with seeing myself as beautiful enough to rock a pair jeans. I believed that skinny jeans were only made for skinny people. I thought that if I was a size above 10 in jeans then I shouldn’t even bother and of course I just happened to be two sizes over that number.
I figured though (and so did my friend) that it was time to move on and begin breaking down the lies I was believing about myself and step out of my comfort zone. My comfort zone, by the way, consisted of sweat pants, leggings and very baggy shirts. So there we were at Old Navy and she insisted I try on the clothes and come out to show her (my worst nightmare as I never ever tried on clothes at the store. I figured I fit into XL so I will only buy that no need to waste time trying stuff on). Wanting to be bold, I obliged of course. And an hour or so later I came out with 2 pairs of jeans using a simple concept of picking out jeans that fit my body type and style.
And so this is only the beginning for me. I’m still
struggling stretching in that area. I often catch myself avoiding the mirror or speaking negatively about myself but I am taking those baby steps to better myself. I don’t want to look back a year from now and see the same person. I want to grow in the way I see myself and speak to myself. Because the truth is we ARE beautiful and beauty comes in ALL shapes and sizes. The word itself says it all, Be YOU Tiful.
So I want to encourage you, if there is something in your life, your “pair of jeans” that you have been avoiding, be BOLD. Whether it’s going to the gym by yourself or trying on that bold lip colour, do it! Take that first step. You’ve got the POWER!!
“for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control” 1 Timothy 1:7
Sure I missed out on a couple years of rocking skinnies but to everything there is a season. And now is my time to shine and so is yours!!